suay-ness or blessing in disguise?

halo everyone!

im currently on HL (Hospitalisation Leave).

Y?
cos i fracture my rt.hand middle finger n op was done,now there's a metal piece in the pharynx ,stitches on my hand.

Y?
cos i had a fall from stairs.

Y?
was wearing heels going to attend wedding dinner.

yes, damn stupid,retarded,hilarious.

everybody who hv heard how i obtain a fall, laugh like hell.

including my team doctors,n myself.

till now, i still think it was sooooooooooooooooooooo stupid.

apparently my middle finger had a fracture,n malrotation when i clench my fist.

its painful,but nt very.

durian boy had e greatest shock of his life seeing my hand like this.

he accompany me to A&E,till admission,pre-op,post-op n discharge. he nv leaves me alone.
he has to slp on the hard,high-chair while i get to slp on auto-bed.

but, as i was entitled to B1 class,plus no beds available in 4-bedded,i get to slp in isolation room.
which means,1 whole room for me only! XD
i've gt 1 toliet,a cabinet with mini fridge,flat screen tv mount on the wall,auto-bed with nimbus mattress,n of cos air-con.

i cried a few times during this admission, nt bocs fear of op or staying alone/staying in hospital.

i cried bcos..
1.i have to get myself admitted n op just bcos of a retarded fall.
2.Durian boy acc me throughout w/out any grudges.
3.i've got caring loved ones,friends n colleagues.
4.even when i gt admitted,there's one person still cares abt $ more than me.

And, im grateful to hv QiuMei as my team HO,Shaan as my HO on-call on OP day.

But, abit buay song cos its Yu Yet's Bro who did e op for me when i tell e MO i want Reg.

n e stitching was very badly done,or maybe bcos my hand still swollen.
but if gt a huge scar,i will HATE him for life.
and he bandage my hand become a pig trotter! n i become a 'fortune cat' for days.

when i remove dressing on OP D4,i gt pressure sores on my third n last finger!! @#$%^&

BUT! i gt HL from e day i admitted to 22 feb.

shiok cos no need to work,but v boring staying @ home.plus seeing my wound + still having malrotation of middle finger still depress me alot.

maybe im too eager to recover.but i scared will nt fully recover..

hopefully,on my TCU will give me some gd news.
n hope it's nt tt stupid YY's Bro again.X(

Thanks to everyone who has showered me with care n concern!

Thanks to Durian Boy who's there always,Love u deep deep liao lah~~

Thanks to my family,i know u all cared,deeply touched inside.XD

Thanks to u, now i know my life cant even compare to those dirty money in yr eyes.

resolutions for 2010.

1. to turn up abit more early for work,hopefully gets off shift on time.

2. settled down n focus on degree coming up.

3.get daily disposable cosmetics contact lenses since im wasting my money on monthly's even though i nv wear them more than a week.

4.less cock-up work.

5.give my very best explanation to utimate fucking clients to make them shut up.

6.trying very hard to stop durian boy spending money on me so tt we could get married soon.

7.hopefully,will tahan this job 1 more year.

8.try to look more tidy n nt sloppy when on work.

9.get my tummy folds fat off( which i think impossible)

10.more money in bank,more branded stuffs!

11.trying nt to b irritated by my mum's nonsense.

12.re-do my house to look like a home.

13.get my two sisters to rebond their hair.(which i have already promise them)

14.to the dental's every mth consistently for braces tightening.

15.try not to b a 气包子。

16.to teach as much as i can for coming students or preceptees.

17.to visit ah ma more often.

18.to travel with family(japan?taiwan?hongkong?)

19.spend quality time with family n friends.

20.able to achieve all this year.

happy 2010!

went marina countdown with my siblings n durian boy.

super crowded sia!

u can only see people,cant see the roads already.Human jam everywhere.

as i watched the fireworks,i recall all those things happen last year.

there's gd n bad times.

hopefully,it will become better than ever as each year goes by.

a brand new year,a brand new beginning.

blessed everyone with good health n good luck.

=)

truth is out.

things still e same,isnt it.

actually,there's nth to worry from e beginning.

behave the way u are,n wat u want to be.

we will love u as what u are.

if we look different after we know it,we r not yr friend.

life is more easier when u can be yrself in front of us, isnt it. =)

Thank you

Thank u for not telling me.

Thank u for letting me to be the last to know.

Thank u for making me realise that we r not tt close at all.

Thank u to let me know tt im behaving like a fool.

Thank u for making me feel so miserable.

Thank u for everything.

confused.

i gt this feeling inside,i cant describe wat it is.

its a mixture of everything, but it bothers me.very much.

there's sth goin on,n i dont know anything.

maybe we werent tt close enough.

maybe im just a nobody, n u simply dun care to bother much.

it hurts when i think this way.

its fucked up.

and all along i thought we WERE.

dun bother to explain after readin this.

need some ideas~!

seriously duno what to get for my girl for christmas exchange gift!

shit sia~

i gt no time to buy!

tmr will b PM shift,den AM,den all the way PM till wed. n wed night will b going to genting,again!

comin back on sat,hopefully can rush to meet the girls on sat!

omg~~~~~

i need more time.